tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4679936122244528948.post8093014020132280624..comments2011-03-30T15:30:07.762-05:00Comments on Losing Myself - The Journey to a Healthier Me: Not of My OwnAmanda Machttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09216090285657317954noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4679936122244528948.post-69605375913219981782009-06-30T08:41:20.871-05:002009-06-30T08:41:20.871-05:00Whoa! Seriously, you took the words out of my mou...Whoa! Seriously, you took the words out of my mouth! I've never been very extroverted when it came to my faith. Actually, I have been very spiritually immature most of my adult life. I hardly ever used to talk about God, and always felt shy when talking about spiritual matters.<br /><br />Your blog entry really spoke to me this morning, though...<br />I have struggled with food, weight and body issues since my pre-teen years. This past winter I found myself at my heaviest (6 mos or so after the birth of my 3rd child). I was a stranger in my own body and I hated the way that I felt. One night it was like God spoke to me and suddenly I saw things clearly for the first time... EVER. He spoke straight to my heart and I saw that my weakness and giving in to temptation had a LOT to do with the fact that I didn't recognize that I was being tempted in the first place! It never really occurred that Satan could be the one tempting me, that my overeating was actually sin and that I AM WEAK... not because of my lack of "willpower" but because I had never asked God for strength.<br /><br />This relaizaton put a while new spin on things for me. Not that I am blameless for my weight gain, but it helps me to see where my weakness was. It was a spiritual weakness, not a personal one. And once I understood that I knew what I had to do: pray!<br /><br />Looking back, my 2 biggest problems were 1) not giving Satan enough credit in terms of his abilities to invade my thoughts and life and 2) not realizing I could always ask God for His strength and guidance to resist temptation. (Imagine that!)<br /><br />I felt that God was telling me that I needed to honor Him wth my body and I couldn't do that by eating unhealthy foods in excess or by sitting around, not being active. I'm finally aware of the fact that my body is not my own - I was bought at a price. And to continue to willingly engage in behavior that ruins it - defiles it- IS SIN!<br /><br />So, now my inclination (rather than to "lose weight") is to serve Him and honor Him with my body by eating good food and staying active. And most of all I can honor Him by not hating what He created - ME!<br /><br />Thanks for your comment on my blog. And thanks for writing such a good entry here.<br /><br />-ReneeAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06601366810012193001noreply@blogger.com